I’ll confess: I have a love/hate relationship with the word…
I grew up thinking that being vulnerable was for the weak. I wanted to keep all things feelings to myself and if something was HARD or someone HURT me in some way…I would go into defense mode by saying hurtful things OR just distance myself without a word.
I’ve realized this didn’t make me “strong.” Running from HARD EMOTIONS AND SITUATIONS would just lead to suffering and would keep me from REAL, AUTHENTIC MOMENTS. It finally clicked for me that in order to live in bravery, grace, purpose, find the REAL me, and form connections like never before with the ones I love, I needed to be VULNERABLE and allow myself to be seen. I was tired of always playing a “role” and trying to be perfect in every single thing. These masks make you feel like you’re safe and strong when in REALITY you are sabotaging yourself and pushing away the true you. How can you surround yourself with people that truly honor and love YOU if you’re not even being the TRUE YOU? ✨
As one of my favorite people in this world Brene Brown said, “Vulnerability is the last thing I want you to see in me, but the first thing I look for in you.”
This past year and a half has been a HUGE turning point in my life. Slowly, I’m letting go of “truths” that no longer serve me. I REFUSE to live a life where I play it safe because of fear and insecurities. I’m ready to show up as ME and accept that NOT everyone is going to like it.
Believe it or not, my college thesis was on authenticity and constantly playing roles that don’t align with our true selves. I ended my speech with something along the lines of: Do YOU really know who you are? Or have you had that mask on for so long that YOU don’t even really know who you are? The room was dead silent.
I wish I could of ended it with… I promise you… the true you is somewhere deep inside screaming to come alive again and I know that real YOU is BEAUTIFUL.