I literally needed to take like 14 deep breaths before writing this because life is a workout that I feel I’m constantly trying to catch my breath from.
But 24 years ago, my heart stopped for the second time. Right then and there the Lord could have taken me to be with him forever. But instead he knew 24 years later I would have gone to work, I would have gone to crossfit and had an anxiety attack, I would be concerned about my health and recently discovering that I’m going to have to be gluten free, sugar free, carb free, and lactose free. None of these things come as a surprise to him. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
He knew from the moments I took my first breath, from the viral meningitis, from the moments when my heart failed, to when I was diagnosed with Graves Disease, to when I gave my first injection of insulin, to when I met my husband, to sitting here now, that he loved me and had a purpose for me. He could have taken me then, but he also is a God who loves and who calls us to live a purposeful and sometimes difficult life.
This quote has been sitting in my heart and in my google drive for months with thoughts that would roll around in my brain and here we are, finally.
“I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo. "So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”
So often “I wish it need not have happened in my time.” But that’s the thing, it’s stuff that I can’t do anything about presently or honestly maybe ever. Because this world from the very beginning was created good and perfect, but was tainted by selfishness and vanity. So for now it’ll be broken until it’s made whole again. Until that day, I have been dealt these unfortunate difficulties.
But we’re purposefully put here to do with what has been given to us, whether fortunate or not so favorable. Rise above your situations. Get up and look up. Remember to whom you belong. You were created with purpose, so live intentionally. Even if it’s for a season, bloom where you are planted.
All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.