When shit turns left, I’m never there. Being there for people is too great of a responsibility I can never handle fully and it’s highlights how much of a complete liar I am. I’m filled with shit. Literal, degrading shit. I deserve everything I get. The pain god offers to me and all the struggle I feel with throughout my life I all fucking deserve. Always will and always have. I can never amount to anything good. I make empty promise I even think I can keep but I can’t find how to run that extra mile for a person who’s race a hundred for me. I fucking hate me. I should die a horrible, graphics l death.