The Price of “Freedom” on the Road.
Everything is a balance in life. Living in my truck for over two years has made a lot of logistic and economic sense. But in turn:
I sacrificed a few comforts,
stretched some close ties with friends,
broke a few hearts (mine not excluded),
fed the brain and the soul (and kept the body going on oatmeal),
developed a rather cavalier outlook on love, happiness and success,
read a bit, not enough
wrote a lot more,
told stories, lots of stories,
listened to even more,
fought physical, mental, emotional battles,
arrived at who I am today,
realized how much is left to learn.
I don’t regret any of it. I wouldn’t be myself without it. But the highest cost of life on four wheels hasn’t been my abysmal gas mileage or the lack of what we now consider creature comforts; it has been the lack of community and meaningful relationships. That is not to say I haven’t made some of my best friends on the road—incredible humans, some with even more wandering hearts than mine and others rooted deep in a community I merely scraped the surface of. But they’re needles in a haystack of brief conversations, furtive glances, one-night stands, hey can I share the outlet’s, no I don’t live here’s, and would you like that burrito for here or to go’s.
The only way to break that system, to create the potential for a community and meaningful relationships, is to invest time and energy over an extended stay—grounding myself, so to speak. I’ve done it in Anchorage (incidentally), in Revelstoke (twice), and in Lone Pine (which exists in a real duality of feelings for me); the next step, by a series of almost comedic events, is Santa Cruz. I think I’ll be here awhile—trying not to surf too much like a kook, taking advantage of an open-till-midnight coffee shop and open-till-eleven climbing gym, working some random part time gigs, and evading SCPD as I hunt down places to rest my home on wheels. It’s something I need, something I’ve probably needed for some time, something I just gotta do for myself. See y’all on the coast.