Today marks 9 years that you went back to heaven.
9 years that I haven’t seen your face,
Kissed your cheek,
Rubbed your feet,
Played with your hair,
Rode your tractor,
Told you a joke,
Gave you a big bear hug,
Snuggled up to you,
Told you I loved you,
Laughed with you,
Cried with you,
Or seen your beautiful smile.
It’s been so long yet it feels like a blink of an eye. I remember like it was yesterday when we took these family pictures. I felt so special I got this picture with you that day. It’s been one of my favorites and I always have it close to me. This picture was out on my wedding day and now it sits on my night stand where I can go to sleep dreaming of you and wake up to your beautiful smile.
I remember our camping trips, the amazing food you made, the way you could make us laugh in moments we wanted to cry. The way you always were so happy, loving, and kind. There wasn’t a mean bone in you! Everyone that knew you loved you. You would treat everyone like family and knew exactly how to make them feel so special.
I walked into the living room today and what are the odds that the cartoon Up was playing? Every time I see it I get flooded with emotions and tears. It was our last outing together you took all of us to the movie theatre to go watch it. We all had popcorn and fought over who got to sit next to you. I always remember when you dropped us off at moms I fell asleep on the ride home. I remember waking up and giving you a quick hug and kiss goodbye and I told you I loved you. I ran in the house and went to my bed. How I wish I could go back to that night and give you one more hug. Tell you I love you one more time. Most of all thank you for the incredible dad you were. For teaching me so much. For giving us the most beautiful gift we could ever ask for, and that’s loving others no matter who they are or where they come from. You taught us to love unconditionally and love with all we’ve got.
There’s so many times where I have wished you could be here with me. Times I felt like I needed you so bad. I know you were there though. You have never left my side. I’m thankful for 16 beautiful years with you! I love you papa bear! With all my heart. ❤️